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El Roi- The God Who Sees

Have you ever been surprised by love?  I have had more of these little love gifts than I can count over the years, but there have been two lately that really grabbed my heart and reminded that God’s goodness towards us is so lavish!  A new friend gave me a gift for my house a few months ago.  When I peered inside the pretty bag and pushed past the crinkly paper, my mouth fell open.  Inside was a delicate, yellow blanket that matched my bedroom perfectly!  What blew my mind is that this new friend had never even been to my home, much less seen my bedroom decor.  And I knew that God was speaking through her.  He was telling me loud and clear that He sees me and cares about even the details like what delights my heart. 

Then last Wednesday night late I got a text from a dear lady asking me if my husband and I would like two free tickets to the Fox to see Les Miserable! Was that even a question?!?  I have always wanted to go to the Fox but with all the babies and only living in the metro area for a few years, it has just never happened.  Not to mention the whole thing can cost a pretty penny!  What this sweet lady did not know is that not only was this a bucket list item for me, but my birthday is only a few days away!  I felt like I had just been given a birthday present from heaven!

We are not all in the same place at the same time.  Life is a journey full of seasons.   There was a time when I questioned the goodness of God.  Not for hours or days or weeks.  More like months that slipped into years before I knew it.  His goodness was really all I had known until that day when my life fell apart.  And then suddenly how could He still be good when all I could feel was the suffocating pain of death?  My faith had not yet been tested in the fire.

I don’t have all the answers.  That’s not what got me through.  Little by little, piece by piece those seeds of the Word- the truth of who God is and how He loves us and how He has a plan to  defeat death and end all this pain-  those seeds that were stored up in my heart during all the good years brought forth a harvest of faith that sustained me in the winter.  I didn’t feel it was true.  But truth isn’t based on feelings or even our experiences.  Truth doesn’t change.

He calls himself El Roi in the Old Testament- it is Hebrew for “the God Who Sees Me.” And He really does.  See us in the place where we are.  Whatever season you are in, my prayer this morning is that you will not feel alone that you will have a stirring deep in your heart that He does indeed see you and care about you.  I pray love gifts from heaven will litter your path and speak to your heart whether you find yourself in the bleak winter or in the warmth  of summer.

I already had the pillow and the curtains!!
You can tell which side I sleep on...
the girl who starts piles of books
but struggles to finish them!



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