An Unexpected Journey

We are finally getting settled in our permanent home here.  And I am exhausted. From unpacking a house.  With three babies.  And working a job.   I wish I had an amazing post full of deep things to share, but to be perfectly honest I can barely keep my eyes open as I type this!  Nevertheless, I have not shouted to the world how thankful I am even in this difficult season of Makiah’s heaven day to have a reason to celebrate...  my reason came as a complete and total surprise.  The BEST surprise of my life (my other kids weren’t surprises so I can say that).  She has blonde hair and blue eyes, and she loves to snuggle.  She cuddles and kisses and ends every night tucked in our bed where she has to be touching both of us.  She is vibrant and full of life and joy, and I can’t tell you how many times I have thought that she was sent to bring kisses from heaven!   She is my Maddie Grace.  And she just turned one!  In case...

Dearest Makiah, Some days I feel like I am living in a different life.   New town, new church, new house,   new job, new kids.   (I did keep your Daddy, though! )  But the signs of you are still all around.   I folded your pink princess blanket and put it in our hall closet last night.   Yesterday Alena came out of my bathroom wearing your old rain boots.   She stomped around proudly in her diaper and your aqua blue boots with white polka dots.   In the move this past week I stumbled on a big box of size 5 clothes I had bought for you.   Tags still hanging forlornly.  I guess we had tucked them away after you left us, and I forgot.   And of course there are four sets of rainbow toes in our house today.   Eye catching.  Bright and wiggly.    Just like you. At school I find myself looking for the second graders.   Imagining what you might look like now.    Would your legs be lanky and you...