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Seeing Eye to Eye

Am I the only one???  Do you ever have those days where you accidentally call yourself something like Mrs. Speech when you meant to say Mrs. King to your students?  Or where you hit your head on the microwave door while you are running around frantically in the morning?  Or you stop in to get a $5 hot and ready pizza because you need a quick dinner fix for the kids and you just barely catch yourself getting out of the car while it’s still in drive?   Or you are hopping out of your friend’s truck and whack your head… and you couldn’t find your keys in that black hole of a purse just a second before!  You know.  Brain fog.  

When I had 4 kids under 4 I lived in a constant state of brain fog, but now it’s more of an occasional thing.  I remember when they were all babies, I once lost my keys for weeks.  I thought some kid had thrown them in the trash until I went to pour a bowl of cereal one day and out came the keys!  Yep.  Landed right in my bowl of cereal.  Crazy thing was we kept the cereal up high so somehow I must have done it… probably the result of eating cereal out of the box in the car on the way to or from work.  Serious survival mode back then.

When I think of the look on my student’s faces when I called myself Mrs. Speech or my mother-in-law’s expression when that microwave door whacked me in the face and then popped back for a double whack, I can’t help but giggle!  And I wonder if God is getting a kick out of all my blunders as I sometimes race through life at breakneck speed.  I mean really.  You might as well laugh!  I learned that early on when my twin 18 month olds and my newborn were all crying at once… you can either join them in the meltdown or just laugh at the insanity of the situation!!  

So that’s where I sit this week.  The week I planned to evaluate how I am doing on my new goals- my fresh start in the new year.  I decided once a year is not enough to have a new start.  Why not once a month or so?  Take a deep breath.  Evaluate what the last 31 days have brought.  Celebrate the victories- I am writing more and on pace to meet my book reading goal (well, thanks to audible!), and face the failures by not ignoring them- my measly 3 trips to the gym or giving in to my love of retail therapy by trading writing time for shopping a few mornings… remember, I am just sure I have a minimalist heart trapped inside my hoarder body,  and this is the year it will break free!

We can’t make progress- real progress- if we play ostrich and stick our heads in the sand.  Life is crazy, and brain fog is real.  But we have to take a coffee break away from the whirlwind and step back and evaluate.  Ourselves.  Maybe it has been one step forward and two steps back, but when we see that, we can decide to make changes.  And we gain something.  Momentum!  My hubby has good things to say about momentum and the tipping point and changing how we view what we have here.

There is one thing I know for sure even in my brain fog.  We have a cheerleader.  No matter who is supporting you or who is pushing against you as you try to improve yourself, there is One who is For You.  He is always wanting the best for us.  Always wanting us to hear His songs of love over us.  His words of encouragement to our hearts.  Maybe life has told you something different- that no one is on your side and even God is up there keeping score and deciding if He likes you or not.  Friend, I am here to tell you that His heart is for you.  Like every good parent, He loves us enough to want us to grow and mature and become more like Him, but He is loving us through the process.  

 HIs greatest longing is that we will take the time to look deep in His eyes- to see our reflection the way He sees us- as a treasure.  The ones worth fighting for.  Worth dying for.  So we will know He is worth living for.  And when we realize we are His treasures, we will care.  Enough to let Him guide us with His eyes.  When my kids look in my eyes, they can usually tell if they are making good choices or not because we have a relationship.  And we know and love each other.  That’s what He wants.  With you.  With me.   For us to see...


“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye…” 

Psalm 32:8 (NIV)
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